December 28, 2006

Precious Life

Hello! I am Chong Jia Yee . . . . . .

Jia Yee. . . .you are so C.U.T.E. . . . . . . ! . ! . ! .

come on! don't leave me alone ! please ~
Jia Yee & Jou Nin
SPF50+ Nivea & L'oreal sunblock . . . Yesterday sleep quite late....feels sleepy now!~ lack of zzzz make me feels dizzy but today i sleep till 10am++ i think i'm still in the bed if Alice didn't bring her baby here. (paiseh..!)

t's very hot today, i can feel dat the sun now are not the same (maybe the ozone layer is getting thin)~ just standing outside of my house for few minutes and i notice that sweats all over my body, makes me feels sticky~ i hate it! wat can i do? i can't change this ... we don't hv four seasons here. Arhh~ miss the time when i was in Canada so so so.. muchy ~ it's so cold and snowing at the time i was there but no choice~ i just stayed there for one week ~it's too short LoL~ what to do, haih!~ unless i migrate there LoL~ maybe i can plan for my retirement there, but..I hv to started saving money from now on.. (need a lot of $$$, anyone who want to sponsor me?) LoL~

In Japan, Korea and Taiwan ~ I can see girls there looking so nice with their make-up and fashionable hair-do~ Their make-up can lasted from morning till night or even the next day, still can go out without taking bath LoL~ Over here, our make-up start melts before we reach the place we goin..haha!~ getting into the that car parked under the sun is like getting into the hot oven, huh~ everything's melting~ Use sunblocks SPF50+ for max protection. I found the brand i'm using now is good ~ (pls. refer to the pix). After that much nonsense i wrote let me con't with my Blog ~ here it goes . . . . .

Today, help Alice to look after Jia Yi while she brings Zhen to Bangkok with Kien, papa & Xen. I hope they will get the way to cure Zhen. First time bathing baby again after 5 yrs ^.^ LoL~ well, i almost forget how to hold the tiny little baby when bathing them~ haha~ but i get back all the memories very fast... i had a good time bathing her....and she seems like very enjoy it too or i should said we both are enjoying the moment LoL~ Her tiny little fingers reminds me of my 3 kids when they are baby & now it's imposibble for me to get to touch their tiny finger again but when i touched Jia Yi's fingers she hold me tight...just like that kind of feelings ^.^ She is a good baby...after bath she played for a while then sleep~

ia Yi didnt bring any troubles at all but, in return i was afraid that my kids will injured her. They never hv a baby at home before ^.^ for them, this is the first time get closer to a baby~ I can see they like Jia Yi very much ~ holding her hand, talking to her and looked after her. Both of my princess were so helpful when i ask them to help me~ They like the baby so much.. all of them has grown up now with Xinnin already 5 yrs old ~(Can't imagine how times flies?? ... my memory is still fresh when i first born KaiXen~ )

Deep in my heart i knows that my kids wanted a little bro or sister ~ but, do i need to be pregnant with another baby for them? This is very difficult decision for me. I can't explain my feeling towards Boon. He oftens hurts me in silence which he didn't even notice it. We have nothing to talk about ~ dunno when it starts~ how long can we stayed like that?? I hv tried to bring this issue to him several times in which he promise me he will changed but to no veil. He never changed!! and.., i don't expect he can change just for me~

His drinking habit is killing me too~ it's like a sharp knife stabbed into my heart which keep on bleeding day by day~ just hv to wait till the day i stopped bleeding and i will take my last breath and gone forever. No one will see me again! No use for me to changed him. We are peoples from different world but, staying under one roof. We don't have any similarities at all.... i don't drink, i don't gambling, i don't going out late night, i don't put all my times outside with my friends, having a good time outside and forgetting the one at home. Should I have to change myself to match him???

why do i hv to be the first one to talk to him everyday which i might not get a response? why do i hv to be the one start worried when he doesn't come back from work? why do i hv to be the one who call him all the time and don't even hv me in his heart? why do i hv to the one who ask him what he want to eat and he don't even feels hungry? why do i hv to be the one who worried about his health that he never cares about it? why do i hv to be the one who called him at 4am to ask his location and he don't even think it's bedtime? why do i hv to care so much for him but he doesn't care for me at all? why do i hv to worried so much for him when he thinks there is no big deal? why do i hv to care for his feelings all the time when he don't even care how i feels??. . .

astly....i wonder is love still exist??? I am finding my love....i am a human being with emotions, i need someone to talk to, someone close to me who else if not u?? I need someone listens to my feelings, happy one, sad one, suprises i get, my new experiences, my complaint, problems i faces and my needs... but, i don't have one who can share all this... i wanted to share my life with u maybe just once (is there any future life??)~ Life is too short and I wonder how many more 10 years we can be together?? We have finished our first ten years together without leaving much sweet memories beside for u to give me 3 lovely kids. Thank U~

or me, they are my life, they are my everything~ they brings laughter to me, they brings angers to me, they bring worried to me, they bring hopes to me, they brings surprises to me, they help me grown more mature, help me to move on my life, accompany me all the time, makes my life more meaningful and add colours to it~ Thanks, mommy loves u all so so much~ I can't imagine the life i hv without having 3 of them in this world.

am not that bad, at least i am living my day without the feeling of emptiness...i still hv my parents to help me out, i hv my brother coming visit me, i hv Aeiween to chat and share my up and downs, i really enjoy chatting with her, i hv a lovely mom-in-law that care for everthing happening around her, i hv a good father in law, i hv a lot of caring friends out there to chat with and owned all the thing i want. Not lack of food and clothes. Having my own car and a peaceful home to live in. Thanks~

I do believe in FATE. It has been fate that brought Boon and me together. It's fate that i come to this world and meet all the people around me. My family, my friends, my pets ~ we are lucky that in this big world with so many people and animals lived in and we are fated to meet and knowing each other for once in our life time to share the same life journey. This moment will not be replaced or repeated~ I appeciate and treasure all the people besides me so much. Without any one of you, my life will not be the same as now. I enjoyed the moment we shared and being together always. We can't predict things that going to happen tomorrow. Anything will happens to us and our loved one which might left us regrets forever.~ Why don't you treasure them while you still hv the opportunity to do it now??. Remember this quotes

Help me to find back my loving and caring husband that i know 10 yrs ago. . .

I want to say "I Love U" to all of you before it's too late. Take care ~

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December 25, 2006


My lovely daughter XinNin...photographed by TinTin ~ 25Dec2006

December 16, 2006


Today wake up very late around 10.30pm. Very lazy n Boon buy "nasi lemak" for our lunch. Go to the "kuan yin" temple to pray today and "xia tai sui" most chinese will do this before chinese new year approach. Oh yea, i planted white lotus outside my house. New leaves started to came out. When will it flower? LoL... Zhen condition still the same this few days not improved or getting worst and i think that should be good sign...

Tomorrow i will go to Nakorn, Thailand with them to visit Ah Chan A Long (master) to let him see Zhen. Will stay there for 2 nights..(i'm not sure). I will go with Boon and Xen. Really hope to hear some good news there that Ah Chan can cure Zhen disease. Miracle do happen.., i do believe it!

Feels sleepy now,..haha~ maybe i've sleep too much this morning..the more we sleep makes us want to sleep more n more..feels lazy.. Just let me con't the blog after i came back from that time i will have more things to write. Anyway, ..pls. pray for my nephew..he is an obidient and cute boy...BUDDHA BLESS HIM!

huh..i really need a massage..LoL

Good nite!

Current Mood: Not feeling quite good, very dry lips and bit sore. Not enough sleep (tired)~
Current Weather : Hot sunny sun the whole day...

Finally i have seen Zhen. He arrived with Alice on Friday/15 Dec early morning at 3am by taking bus from KL. I can see the rashes on some parts of his body, swelling on his face, knee and around ankle. His fingers swell and he cannot bend it. He is thin and his skin colour look so different a little bit! (sad,sad,sad) Yesterday we(papa,mama,ween,xen,alice,zhen &me) went to Penang visit Uncle Quek with Alice and Zhen. Bring Zhen to see him. We go there around 5pm. According to Lau (Uncle Quek's student), Zhen disease is a KARMA ( ) Alice hv 2 speak more chanting which might help. He ask Zhen to take more vege rather than meat & be a temporary monk for a week. This is few advise given by Lau and I hope miracle will happen after that.. Beside this, we try this PI Water too.. ( ) which is believe can prevent and cure cancer beside the serious skin disease and many other critical illness..Let him drink a lot of PI water...drink as much as he can..and now all my kids too follow him drink and pee, drink and pee...haha! Miracle might happen as long as we've tried our very best..don't give up and fight till de end....yeah!


(pic above fr left: Zhen & my son Xen)

December 13, 2006


I've heard of Blogger long ago but doesn't seem want to create one until today. Aha..i want to down some of my life journey, magical moment of my life; thank Buddha /i'm buddhist/. My life hv been so far so good not much troubles and i was blessed with 3 lovely kids and a loving hubby tho' sometimes we does argue ..LoL! Which couples don't argue ah....! Today i wake up at 9am to sent my youngest princess to school. If not b'coz of sendin her i will hv been sleep till when...huh, i dunno..haha! I slept very late last night..around 4am ermm.., i was trying out all the html stuff,..editting my Hi5 homepage. It was tough as i dun hv any basic at all..i keep on tryin as the time passed...only i realise it's that late..

Our house just painted last week. I was really very busy...all the furniture hv to be moved and my house is so small...LoL! When they paint the living room all da things hv to be moved to the dining for the sofa just cover it with big plastic...the whole house are in the mess and i takes me sometime to arrange and clean it /can u imagine that? / ....the curtain hv to be washed, the windows hv to be cleaned before put back the curtain and much more..and more... i also take sometime to pack all the things that i dun want...old clothes, toys, books & etc to give it to others. Clear all the stuff that i dont want. Today, i didnt so lazy. Just eat bread. My maid fried some french fries for my kids and they eat bread too. This is once a while..normally i will cook for them or buy the food from outside.

I called Alice /my sis-in law/ just now to ask for my nephew conditions. I get to know he was diagnose with JM /Juvenile Dermatomyositis/ last week. He is just 6 yrs old. After reading some homepage in the net i just get to know how serious is this disease. It's a rare disease that only one in 3 million children will diagnose with it. The whole US only 5000 children diagnose with this disease and it was a uncureable disease. Take a look at the homepage and u will know what is't about. We all are so sad but can't change the facts that he was diagnose with this unique disease. I dun know abt this disease until my nephew got it. I dun even heard of it before. My nephew had developed rashes on his elbow, knee and fingers abt a year ago. Alice bring him to see the skin specialist but the rashes still there..thought it was just a normal rashes. We dun know actually it was one of the symptoms of JM. Only after his knee began to swell, Alice bring him to Dr. to check his bone and at the same time know abt this disease. How i wish that the Dr said he is not diagnose with JM and it was some other disease that can be cure. He still hv few lab test to go through before they could confirmed it was a JM.

Alice told me, today there is more symptoms showed. Skins below his eyes swelling as well beside his knee. His fingers joints swell too. His hand is hard not soft like other children. He complains knee pain. Beside the existing rashes at certain parts of his body now he develop some at the back of his neck and both eyes near to his nose. The skin of his eye lids changed colour. ahhhhh..why this happen to him? I really hope he will get well soon. Pray for him.. He has to go through some test before he can take the drugs to control his immune systems..which will hv many side effects. I really hope miracle will happen..he will be cure and come back as a healthy boy as he use to be. Oh...plssssss!!!

It's time to bed ...oh! i'm tired. Need to sleep now.